God placed a desire in my heart to start a blog months, maybe even years ago. I have been waiting for the “perfect time” to start it because of my Type A personality, perfectionist tendencies and procrastinating disposition. I purchased my domain and hosting in March and ever since then I have found every reason not to launch. First, I wanted to design an attractive website that was visually appealing. Next I said, “I will launch after I write 10 blog posts.” For the last 3 months, I’ve said, “I will launch on the 1st of the month.” During all of my stalling, I was being disobedient to what God told me to do. When he placed the desire in my heart to blog I should have asked Him when to launch, instead of trying to determine my launch date on my own. My first blogging mistake was thinking that this blog belonged to me. This blog belongs to God even though the web address bar has my name followed by a .com.
The Time is Now
While going about my normal morning routine, God told me that I would launch my blog on July 5th. Can you imagine how surprised I was when I looked at the calendar and today’s date is the 5th? I don’t have any of my brainstormed topics prepared. They are all neatly written on a piece of notebook paper, filed behind their respective tab in my blog binder with their check box beside the titles ready to be marked off. If you’ve gotten this far in the blog, I don’t have to tell you that this wasn’t one of the ones I brainstormed. Despite the prompting of the Holy Spirit telling me to start today, I still wasn’t convinced. The next series of events is what convinced me that I should launch my blog today.
Over the past few weeks, the Lord has been working on my character to purge some of my ungodly attitudes, thoughts, and behaviors. During the same time span, I have been faced with some of the most challenging situations in my marriage, finances, etc. Like most believers, I was quick to blame everything on the devil, not wanting to take ownership of any of my own flaws. God was telling me that it was time to grow up spiritually and stop blaming the devil for my flaws because the devil has already been defeated according to the scriptures.
For I Know the Plans I Have for You
God is intentional. God allowed each situation I faced to help my character development. This weekend, I was lead to study the character of Jesus. I studied the Beatitudes of Jesus (Matthew 5:1-2) and the Fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23). It’s embarrassing to admit that despite being a born again believer that has accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, I had not developed a lot of Jesus’ character traits. That’s when a light bulb went off…the real reason that I delayed starting my blog was because I didn’t feel qualified. I wanted to start a natural hair blog as a self-proclaim natural hair enthusiast. God wanted me to start a Christian Lifestyle Blog. How? I am not a minister and I’ve never been to theology school. That didn’t matter to God. I had a teachable spirit and a willingness to draw near to Him. He promised to give me the words to say, just like He did for the prophet Jeremiah.
One Thing After Another
During my quiet time with God, I grabbed my little to do list to see what my first task of the morning was. First on the list was doing the laundry. After the laundry finished washing, I tried to start the dryer and it wouldn’t start. This is the second dryer my husband and I have purchased in 2 months (the first one was a complete lemon). Next, I texted my husband and asked if he could reach out to the repair man and decided I would just hang the clothes up to dry. We’ve been having a problem with our air conditioner for the past month, so with it getting warm in the apartment I knew the clothes wouldn’t have a problem drying. I had two choices: go to the laundromat or hang the clothes up to dry. I chose the latter. So I took the wet clothes in the bathroom to hang them up on the shower curtain rod. The weight of the wet clothes caused the shower curtain rod to fall down; now the clothes, shower curtain, and shower curtain liner were on the floor. When I tried to put the curtain rod back up, it came apart.
“Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour.” 1 Peter 5: 8
Time to Take Action
I woke up armed with God’s truth about how I should respond to certain situations so I was able to discern the test at hand and determined to pass it. God told me to launch my blog today. If the enemy could tempt me to get distracted, I wouldn’t do what God told me to do. Back to back problems could easily cause me to lose my temper; however, temperance is a Fruit of the Spirit that Jesus possessed. I took a deep breath and slowed down to handle one problem at a time. See if the devil can’t stop you, he tries to speed you up.
I started hanging my clothes all over the house, on door knobs, the pantry, and refrigerator. If it had a hook, then it had a hanger on it. Next, I picked up the shower curtain to see if I could put it back together. I put it back together and hung it up along with the shower curtain and shower curtain liner. Afterwards, I walked into my office, sat down at the computer and clicked on the button to launch my blog. My website was live without any posts. That didn’t stop me. I started writing. Over the past few weeks, I have tried to write blog posts several timesand have been unsuccessful. If you’ve read this far, you see that problem was rectified also.
I passed the first of many character test. According to God, all I needed was to pass the test in order to launch. I was ready to write, not because I knew what to say, but because He gave me what to say. 2 Corinthians 3:5 says,”Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God”.
Has the Lord has placed something for you to do on your heart today? If so, take the first step of faith. Don’t try to wait for the perfect time. Don’t let perfectionism get in your way. Give yourself permission to be a beginner and allow yourself to be lead by the promptings of the Holy Spirit.
Grace and Peace